I acknowledge this post has been long in coming. I have had a few weeks to bask in the glory and excitement of having successfully told Michael Bublé my story in person and taking a “selfie” souvenir to remember the event. It has been quite a ride. I have been sitting with my experience and processing it all. Now it is time to share!
June 25, 2014, was the seven year anniversary of Jacob’s passing and I admit, after having such a phenomenal day on the 24th, I was afraid and worried. Will something bad happen? It had been seven years since I felt so open and connected to the Universe and quite frankly, joyous. It had been so long since I had believed that amazing things could just fall into place and actually happen. Events left me with renewed faith and wonder at my amazing life.
Before Jacob passed away, I was on a path that involved a lot of introspection and taking chances to live a life full of beauty, intention, belief, and openness to abundance. I was genuinely happy with my life, not that it was without trials. Things felt like they were going well and I felt connected to those around me and marveled at how amazing life could be when open to joy and happiness believing that dreams came true every day.
The day Jacob died, I turned away from my openness and belief in the immensely giving nature of the Universe. It was not that I wanted to live an unhappy, depressed existence; it was that I was afraid. I was afraid to be happy and be in harmony with the Universe because at I was doing just that when Jacob died. At that time I was trying to “live my best life”. Then the worst thing happened, something I had not even imagined could happen, actually did. My only son died and he was only eight years old.
My goal of meeting Micheal Bublé forced me to push past fear – a lot of different fears, actually. Firstly, I feared that I would be judged by others for wanting to meet a celebrity. I had to tell people about my dream so that others could help me, so I did it. I was afraid that I would not be able to make it happen because I did not know how. When talking to anyone and everyone about my dream to meet Michael, I sought out people who had done it before or who might have the right connections. I was afraid I would give up, so I committed myself to doing one thing every day (no matter how small) towards my goal. I was afraid it would not happen even if I did all I could, so I had to ultimately leave it to the Universe and wait and believe.
What was my biggest fear? It was that I would succeed. And in doing so, I risked being really, really happy getting something I wanted with my whole heart. That was terrifying. The last time my heart was so enlightened, tragedy struck. I knew the only way I could face this big fear was to do it and live through it and experience a new outcome.
June 24, 2014, proved to me that I can have absolutely mind-blowing, happy days and that my life will NOT implode the next day. I do not have to fear repercussions for wanting and acting toward living a full, happy life. It is so freeing. I feel lighter somehow and I find I smile more too. I can ask for what I REALLY, REALLY want and I CAN get it. If I can imagine it, I can do it. This experience has left we with a renewed sense of wonder at the vastness of the world. It has encouraged me to really go for what I want; to make positive life changes that I had been putting off because of the fear of the unknown.
Shortly after meeting Michael, I was speaking with a co-worker about that amazing feeling of being open and things just magically falling into place and how I’d survived and nothing bad had happened. She pointed out that it was a new day. I have a new life ahead am entering a new cycle of being. That really struck me and it feels so true!
That conversation led me to choose a new theme song (I highly recommend them as they are fun and motivating!): “Feeling Good”, by Michael Bublé. Come on, you knew the chances were good it would be a Bublé song. I chose this song because it resonated with what my co-worker had said but it was also a song that resonated seven years ago when I was making other positive life changes.
Thank you for being a part of my journey. I have no doubt that all the positive energy that came from my family, friends, and readers influenced how everything just fell into place so I could meet Michael and learn that good things do not always precede bad. I am eternally grateful!
But this is not goodbye! This is just the beginning! I have a new big, scary goal and it is going to be amazing! I’m still working on the details and nurturing my idea, but when it is ready, you will know all about it and hopefully join me on that journey too!
May all your dreams come true!
All my love,
Originally published on www.meetingmichaelbuble.com