Little did I know that Elton John’s “Your Song” would prove to be one of the biggest gifts I would ever receive. It became a thread that forever ties my heart to my oldest son, Jacob. Elton John’s music wove its magic into Jacob’s earliest beginnings. When I was pregnant with Jacob, I was obsessed […]
Category: My Grief Journey
My thoughts and experiences with grieving the loss of my eight-year-old son.
Thank you Kraft Canada for supplying the base recipe for these cookies! Jacob and I had lots of fun experimenting and adding our own twist. Below is what we decided was the best recipe. Prep time: 10 min Total time: 30 min Makes 24 servings, Recipe by: Kraft, modified by Jacob Kotler What You Need 1 cup Kraft […]
I found this little guy living in the toy box at my chiropractor’s office. Most people won’t know the significance of this little penguin. But I do. And so does Dr. Ron and Ursula at McKenzie Wellness Centre. When I handed out penguins 10 years ago, I had no idea that they would still be […]
It’s strange how grief can sneak up on you when you least expect it. How odd that you can feel so horrible after such a fantastic day. My family and I had the most spectacular day in Drumheller, AB on Sunday – but Monday I had a grief hangover. I didn’t anticipate it for my […]
Two things struck me today… Other people go through the same things I go through. When I write about grief or my story, I cry and it hurts to go there. I worry that my mental health will suffer if I go there, so I’m torn between sharing and caring. Except not sharing isn’t really […]
Today I find myself wanting a new story. I want to step outside of my life and shed the skin that I’ve identified with for the past eight years: grieving mother. I want to fly away from it and not look back. I am grateful for it and it’s made me into the person I […]
Recently someone pointed out to me that I am trying to impress dead people. And they are right – in a sense. It certainly looks that way given the tone and subject of this blog so far. Yes, my recent goals have been centered on things connected to my dead son, Jacob. I strive to […]
Not too attractive, is he? He doesn’t say much, but boy do you feel his presence. He’s kinda gloomy to have around and he can be a real spoil sport at parties or other joyous occasions. The best is when he decides to come on strong for no apparent reason… but then that’s usually when […]
